I know I should be happy... but...

This should be the happiest time of my life. I am engaged to an amazing man who has a passion for God and loves me with all of his heart. I love him too don't misinterpret where I'm going with this. But I feel like there are other things right now that are getting in the way of the joy that should be surrounding everything I do in this time of preparation, and anticipation. As we all are fully aware, the economy is not so great right now. Close friends and family members are losing their jobs and struggling to make ends meet and so far I've just been watching it all happen and keeping my fingers crossed that the hammer won't come down on me or anywhere too close for comfort. But these last few months have been a bit difficult. By no means am I really struggling, nor am I left with no where to go and no one to turn to for financial help, thank God for that, but I have been feeling very discouraged lately as I have been applying for jobs and been hearing nothing positive back except an interview I had last week that seems to have fallen through. Bottom line, things are not looking too hot on the job hunt front. (< Ha that rhymed) But with the wedding 4 months away and the need for a steady income becomes a bigger cloud hanging over my head, I have really had to try that much harder to keep looking at the glass half full. I know things are not as bad as they could be, but I want to stop feeling worthless at some point and get a start on my new life and the life that I will soon be sharing with the man I love. I know I should be happy... but it's hard sometimes.

Here's where my faith has to come in. I believe that God is good and that we have to go through difficult things sometimes, after all that's the whole purpose of faith right? And I have confidence that everything is going to work out just fine in the end. I know I'll find a job some day (hopefully soon) and I will get married in July and begin on a new road in a new life that is going to be incredibly exciting and amazing. So even though I may feel worthless right now and things may seem like they are crappy at the moment, I trust that God is faithful and He can carry us through whatever we are facing. It's pretty encouraging being able to see how He uses the relationships we have with each other to show us just how present His love is. Just more proof that we're all in this together and we need to be supportive of those in our community of believers and non-believers alike. Keep the chins up!